Mixed Emotions

The past couple of weeks have been a turmoil of emotions for me, so much so that I haven't been able to even think of writing anything in my blogs. I have hardly even visited any of the forums I normally frequent. In fact the only one which does seem to have interested me has been the LDS forum which has interesting gospel topics under discussion. Getting involved in those has somehow helped.

I have entered into the challenge to read the Book of Mormon in 97 days in remembrance of President Hinckley, one day for each year of his life. I have made myself read something every day even though this past fortnight has been harder to keep reading and I have fallen behind schedule, but have been catching up again and am almost on track. I'm in Mosiah at the moment reading about Alma and the sons of Mosiah. The part about Abinadi was so engrossing that it was easy to read more and get more involved in it.

A big argument on the day before Mother's Day left me feeling desperate but out of it came time spent with Emma where we talked about lots of things which may not otherwise have been discussed. It has been so very difficult to get through these last days but I have somehow managed to keep going.

Bishop came up with an odd thing whilst he was talking to me. He actually said that he didn't know what he was talking about and making it up as he went along but it sounded good. He called it 'mental judo instead of mental karate'. Karate is about aggression and destroying things but judo is about defense and just fending off the blows. He said I should practice mental judo and it actually does seem to work.